How To Stop

by Alexondra

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awkwardmarina This album is a "Handful" of awesome songs! I don't know "How To Stop" listening to it! Lololol Favorite track: The Cold.
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This is Alexondra's first full length album and she is so excited to invite you into her world for the duration of the album!

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released February 14, 2017

Engineered, Mixed, and Mastered by Trae Sheehan.
Contact Info: tsheehanmusic@gmail.com

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Alexondra New York, New York

Alexondra is a singer/songwriter from Long Island, New York. She currently studies Studio Composition at Purchase College's Conservatory of Music in Purchase, NY.

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Track Name: $40 Regular
Is this happiness ?
There must but more than just this
You're tired of sitting round in the same old town drinking cheap beer when your parents aren't around

Are you feeling down?
You walk around with your eyes glued to the ground
You're dreaming of a day when you'll finally get away but honey a new place won't fix the sadness In your brain

Oooh oooh oooh
Oooh oooh oooh

Honey you'll go far
100 miles north in that little car
Far from the people that cursed your name
Towards bright new life that is yours to claim
So Buckle up , press that gas , lets see how long that full tank will last (2x)

Do you feel that Breeze?
Let down your hair and smile at the sea
You never get tired of looking at the moon
You've got pictures of the sky hanging in your room

Do you feel alone ?
It's times like these when you start to miss home
As much as you hated it you miss your mom and dad
But you vowed not to go back until you rid yourself of sad

Honey you'll go far
100 miles north in that little car
Far from the people that cursed your name
Towards bright new life that is yours to claim
So Buckle up , press that gas , let's see how long that full tank will last (2x)
Track Name: The Truth
As we grow old and do what we’re told, I can’t help but laugh.
Laugh at the fact that we try to distract ourselves from the truth

The truth. What is the truth?

We are not who we used to be back when I needed you and you needed me.
We’re still best friends aren’t we? But when’s the last time you checked up on me?

Leave me behind and I swear I won’t cry until I’m alone.
Alone in my bed my thoughts filling with dread cause you were my home.

My home. You were my home.

We are not who we used to be back when I needed you and you needed me.
We’re still best friends aren’t we? But when’s the last time you checked up on me?
Yeah, When’s the last time you checked up on me ?
Track Name: Casual
We sit and watch the sunrise from the back of your car
I listen to your voice and wonder what it is we are
I sleep on yoiur chest as the car spews out heat
And dream of how it’d be if you were to fall in love with me

And this just feels so good
To feel like I’m understood

But even at 7:30 am i can see where this will end
Cause we are not friends so why even pretend
That I can be casual when we both know
Im anything but casual we both know, we both know

At 3:30 am we listened to my favorite indie song
You kissed me soft and slow and in my head I sang along
You touch me like you've known me my entire life
Damn, you look so perfect in the soft moonlight

Do you feel this too?
Don’t wanna fall for you


But even at 7:30 am i can see where this will end
Cause we are not friends so why even pretend
That i can be casual when we both know
Im anything but casual we both know, we both know
Track Name: The Cold
You feel most alive when you’re wasting your time.
Do you realize you’ve become what you despise ?

Cause you’re not getting any better.
You’re only getting worse.
So you blame it on the weather and say the cold messes with your nerves.

So count the times that you’ve fucked up this past month. And count the days where you’ve set fire to your brain.
So stop praying for a miracle and try to find a way to make life bearable.

You feel most afraid at the end of a long day.
Pick apart your brain and dwell on every mistake.

Cause you’re not getting any better.
You’re only getting worse.
So you blame it on the weather and say the cold messes with your nerves.

So count the times that you’ve fucked up this past month. And count the days where you’ve set fire to your brain.
So stop praying for a miracle and try to find a way to make life bearable.
Track Name: Toxins
I don't think you're healthy for me You only look you do not see

I'm in the bathroom throwing up Everything but our toxic love


Clothes on our Hotel floor leave traces of the night before
Now it's morning and I feel like shit cause only you and whiskey make me feel like this

I cannot waste my life getting drunk off the love of those who aren't enough.
The toxins taste so good but feel so bad. Last night was the last drink that I will ever have


I'm laying on the bathroom floor wishing I hadn't asked for more.
You're smoking your last cigarette.I drank to remember you drank to forget


Cause I'm trying to Remember how love should feel
It shouldn't leave this numbness where I used to feel
And I keep pinching myself so I know this is real
I keep reopening the wound that I'm trying to heal

I cannot waste my life getting drunk off the love of those who aren't enough.
The toxins taste so good but feel so bad
Last night was the last drink that I will ever have


Toxins fill me up. This is not love.

Toxins fill my blood. Look at what you've done .


I cannot waste my life getting drunk off the love of those who aren't enough.
The toxins taste so good but feel so bad.
Last night was the last drink that I will ever have.
Track Name: The Fall
I’m just trying to find a way to take away the ache.
Cause I am not mistake and I deserve to feel okay.

And maybe I’m just crazy but aren’t we all ?
And nobody can save me when I feel this small.

But I will. Oh I will. Rise above it all.
I will. Oh I will . Learn from the fall.

I’m just trying to find a way to dull my pain.
How many tears will it take to calm my brain?

And maybe I’m just crazy always dwelling on the past.
How many tries will it take me to make a feeling last?

But I will. Oh I will. Rise above it all.
I will. Oh I will . Learn from the fall.
Track Name: For Luke
I wake up in the middle of the night from a nightmare about you.
You gave up on us and our broken love.

And I can’t get it off my mind.
The way you said you weren’t mine.

Cause I am tired of everything but you. Your’e the only thing I could not stand to lose.
So take my time. Take my mind. Take this fragile heart of mine.
But please don’t take your love from me. Please don’t take your love from me.

I loved you, still do but I’m always running away from you. It’s true, I’m too scared to stay.

But you’re still always on mind.
Can we give it one last try?

Cause I am tired of everything but you. Your’e the only thing I could not stand to lose.
So take my time. Take my mind. Take this fragile heart of mine.
But please don’t take your love from me. Please don’t take your love from me.

And I’m always pushing you away but I’d be lost if you didn’t stay.
So let me try to fight this tendency inside to keep you out of this dark and dreary mind.

Cause I am tired of everything but you. Your’e the only thing I could not stand to lose.
So take my time. Take my mind. Take this fragile heart of mine.
But please don’t take your love from me. Please don’t take your love from me.
Track Name: Handful
I am lonely. I’m afraid. I am digging my own grave.
And you keep calling out my name as if I have something to say.

But maybe what you want to hear won’t come out my mouth.
Maybe I stay quiet so the words won’t fall out.

Cause I can’t face the truth and neither can you.
Cause I am not beautiful. I am just a handful.
Yeah, I am just a handful.

Say you really wanna know the parts of me I rarely show.
But I’m an actress, you know that and once you start you can’t go back.

But maybe what you want to hear won’t come out my mouth.
Maybe I stay quiet so the words won’t fall out.

Cause I can’t face the truth and neither can you.
Cause I am not beautiful. I am just a handful.
Yeah, I am just a handful.
Track Name: Monster
“You can’t be that bad” you said to me last May.
I told you that you’d see if you decided to stay.
And maybe that right there was my biggest mistake, Speaking of unknown without giving you a taste.

Close the blinds and shut your eyes cause I’m a monster in disguise.
Let me do what I do best, stick a knife right through our chests.

I begged you to leave while looking down at the autumn leaves.
Cause I know what happens to the ones who mean the most to me
I know I can’t help but it doe’snt change a thing.
I won’t see your face next spring.

Close the blinds and shut your eyes cause I’m a monster in disguise.
Let me do what I do best, stick a knife right through our chests.
Track Name: Black & White
I’m complicated but so are you.
You’re a vibrant red and I’m a fading blue.
Wash away the colors and what have you got left?
The same solomn expressions with just a bit less depth.

But I’d rather live Black & White cause then I’d know what’s on your mind just
looking in your eyes.
Yeah, I want you tonight so let’s turn off the lights cause colors leave us blind.

My world is dark grey and yours is evergreen.
Violet dances from your mouth, the brightest shade I’ve ever seen.
Wash away the colors and tell me what you see.
Everything’s the same but we see it differently.

But I’d rather live Black & White cause then I’d know what’s on your mind just
looking in your eyes.
Yeah, I want you tonight so let’s turn off the lights cause colors leave us blind.
Yeah, I want you tonight so let’s turn off the lights.
Track Name: Dear God
Take me away someplace. I’ll say goodbye for all their sakes.
My friends keep on saying that I will be okay.
What have you got to say?

So give me a sign that I should stay alive.
And if I chose to die, Can I live by your side?
Or will I be a monster in your eyes?
I don’t wanna be a monster in your eyes.

Take me away to a place without pain.
Will things get better if I sit down to pray?
My mother says I need to have some faith.
So if I die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take.

So give me a sign that I should stay alive.
And if I chose to die, Can I live by your side?
Or will I be a monster in your eyes?
I don’t wanna be a monster in your eyes.